New Moon, New Begining

Today was the first day of my new freedom. Of course, I still work part-time, but it feels like so much freedom none the less. So much has been happening for me spiritually lately. The biggest thing is my attempts at communicating with the spirit world/the divine. I had an appointment with my massage therapist on Tuesday. We got to discussing the changes I was making in my life and I mentioned that I was using a life coach. Eventually the conversation got to spirituality and spirit guides, etc. My massage therapist, Pat, was totally getting it!! She has just read a book on Angels and Archangels by Doreen Virtue. When I told her about my body movements during meditation she told me that it sounded like “dowsing” and that I could use these movements to speak to the spirit world. She suggested that I think “show me ‘yes’” and watch the movement and do the same for “no”. What a breakthrough! I immediately went home and tried it. I’ve been working with it ever since. At this point I can almost always feel the movement in my body. It is exciting and wierd and unbelievable. I don’t know fully how to use it, what it means, or where to get help understanding what I take to be a gift, unless of course it is some rare disease. But I am so thankful and aware of how the universe gave me exactly what I needed through Pat.

By the way, I “asked” my spirit guides if I was to attend the healing classes and I got a no. I also asked if I was to be a spiritual teacher and I got a “yes”. 

My assignment “What is cow doodie about having to have an education before I share what I know?” from Margie. I have been working on this and coming to realizations here and there. Margie gave me the names of several spiritual teachers and I picked up a video about Ram Dass at the library. His amazing transformation happened in a moment in the presence of his guru. Eckert Tolle’s transformation happened in a moment as well. Once they understood the truth there was no turning back and nothing else was necessary.

When I began receiving calls for my Spiritual Seekers group I got really excited. There actually are people out there who will answer a random ad hoping to connect with others who are spiritual. The last call I got was from a women who was really excited about the opportunity. She was grateful for me reaching out and had a ton of ideas on expanding and promoting the group. Our conversation made me feel where there was an unmet need out there for spiritual people who are not religious. The awakening of the world is happening and I get to be a part of it. Amazing really and what a huge job.

Healer?

There have been some signs pointing me towards the practice of healing. I believe strongly in mind-body connectedness. I’ve given up medications in favor of massage and meditation. I see the depression and anxiety in the world and the amount of medications that are used to cover up these conditions and I’m disgusted. Recently, I’ve had discussions with the people from the spiritual discussion group who have brought up Reiki healing arts… I meditated yesterday and I thought “healer???” and my spirtiual guide responded quite postitively…(my body movements were strongly forward and back) So this morning I reached for my book to read while I drank my coffee and it wasn’t there. Instead I looked through a course catalog for our community college. Low and behold there are several classes on Reiki and Quantam healing, Saturday classes, not too expensive. Perhaps I should explore this.

Spirit Guides

I was intrigued by a conversation Oprah had with the author of “The Instruction” by Macleod. Macleod speaks with spiritual guides and seems to understand the nature of the soul. I found that what he was saying rang true with me. Yesterday I spoke with a lady who is a healer and knows of chakras and such so I asked her about my body movements during my meditations. She said that the movements were my spiritual guides communicating with me. I think this might be true. Today during meditation I asked my spirit guide to let me “see” her. After becoming very, very still and alert, I felt a cool, breeze like sensation on my right hand. I continued to sense this, so I “asked” is that you, at my right hand. My body started to move in circular motions, but it wasn’t fluid, like normal, it was jerky. I thought, why am I jerking around like this, and I felt a tug, to the right. Oh!!! That’s you again, pulling me to the right, letting me know that you are there. When I came to this realization I felt a surge of emotion, tears rolled down my face. So relieved and happy to know that she is there. I opened my eyes, of course I can’t see her. I asked who are you, who are you? But that will remain a question for now.

So much stuff

It has been a while since I’ve written. I was on vacation and probably a bit distracted for a while. I am so grateful for the spiritual discussion group that I’m starting. People are calling and bringing so much to the table and bringing me back to my purpose. Yesterday I had a conversation with a lady that seemed to make it all so clear. She is looking for something, a group to connect with, a place where she can be with like-minded, conscious people. Formal religions, and churches just don’t do it for those who want to be spiritual, but not religous. In today’s, western world we don’t have a obvious place to practice awareness, consciouness and the like. Yoga provides one outlet, but what about those who can’t or don’t want to participate in the physical practice. If Eckhart Tolle is right and we are on the verge of a major shift in consciousness, then where are these people going to go to be inspired, connect and communicate with others who are participants in the changes that are taking place.  We need our own “church” of sorts. One little ad brought about 8 people so far, and I know there are many, many more who can be reached in different ways. They are searching for something. I think it is a place to feel connected. After speaking to this particular lady, I felt so blessed to be a part of this change, encouraged that taking this small step brought about results, and challenged because so much more is needed.

“Teacher”

I believe this title rings true for me. I continue to transform and recognize the deeper aspects of who I really am. Talking to others about spirituality is powerful for me. The words flow and I feel energized. My current assignment is to do more of that. I have posted an advertisement in the local paper and on Craig’s List. It reads. Spiritual Seekers wanted for informal discussion group. Awakening with Tolle? Exploring meditation? Practicing mindfulness? Your presence is welcome. Please call 541-386-5265 if you are in the Hood River, OR area and would like to join us!

I am thankful for my friends and relatives who are willing to be part of this with me. Thanks for listening and connecting. You have been instrumental in my development. It is because of you that I am now willing to take this discussion outside of these safe boundaries.

Destiny here I come!!

Yesterday was the big day. I told my supervisor that I was cutting back my hours. I hope this doesn’t sound like a cop-out. I was going to quit, but I think this is a good place to start. I will work 2 days a week, no weekends starting in September. This will bring in enough money so that we’re not eating into our savings every month. I spoke to both of the other pharmacists and although they aren’t thrilled, they understand. Short conversations with them showed me that I was on the right track. Both feel stuck in the profession despite years of discontent.

I had a powerful meditation session this morning. My body is full of energy! I was making these huge circular motions, like I was drawing in all the energy from the universe. I went to meet my future self, Earthgirl again. I saw more of the lodge that I live in and got to speak to her more about what I do. It’s good that the vision hasn’t changed, because my mind can certainly take me many other places and I find myself wondering, “Is this what I’m going to do?” I feel like the lodge is in Washington. Just across the river from here. I love this town so much that it makes me a bit sad to have to leave. But, I think when it’s time I won’t be sad. I’m just not quite done here yet.