After finding my mind in turmoil from thoughts of moving to Costa Rica, I needed to find presence again. It is amazing how quickly the unconscious mind takes us over. Yesterday’s meditation was about letting go, again. I was desperate to feel something so when a small movement started in my pelvis I tensed up hoping it wouldn’t go away. I finally felt that tension and practiced releasing. In this I was also able to release my mind from “figuring out” how to make my new future happen. My discussion with Margie was along the same lines and ended with my understanding of how this last weeks meditations were mostly me trying to ignore what has been in front of me all along, I must quit my job. This is a dramatic step, one that I was hoping to avoid before I had some kind of plan. So for the next 2 weeks I will be mulling this step over. One voice is “Maudel Citizen” my premier gremlin and the other “Earthgirl” which is the future me I see in my vision. I wish I had more time, but I must get ready for work.
Tags: conscious
