I woke up at same time as my daughter this morning, uh oh! I set her in front of Aladdin and went downstairs for my meditation. A few deep breaths and then relaxation. The swaying motion is unsure at first then I reaffirm my intention on “the call” and “meditate to connect to the spiritual” and I start to move front and back. I take this to be confirmation that I am on the right track. I breath and relax, going deeper. “Mommy!!” I breath. “Mommy!!!!!”. Ah well, this was bound to happen. I go upstairs. She wants to tell me that the movie stopped. “Is it okay now?” I ask. She says “Yes, but can I have a snack?” Okay, so I get that taken care of, and ask her to not yell anymore and that I’ll be up soon. Back downstairs I am feeling relaxed knowing that I can go back to that state of meditation very quickly. I settle into a few breaths and I feel a left to right motion, “It’s okay” I think. …the call….connect… breath…and I resume the front to back motion. As I go deeper I feel more alert, more aware. I feel brightness behind my eyes. I think, “this is me, the true me.” A small voice in my head asks, “what do you have to tell me?” I clear my head. I am waiting for an image. Something to show me what to do. No image comes but I continue to sense more and more presence of the “spiritual me” the deeper I go the more present I seem to be. I feel that “she” is taking over, is at the forefront of my vision. She says, “follow me, stay like this through your day and follow me. I will show you what to do.” I breath into it, go deeper. She is still there, very present, all-encompassing. I decide this is the message for today. Let the “spiritual me” take over and guide this body.
That is the most difficult thing to do, isn’t it? How quickly the ego can creep up and take hold. It is when you are so taken up with the “things” that have to be done, and the people that you have to communicate with. To hold this presence throughout the day…that is THE aspiration. To always feel connected to that spirit inside, then to feel that the spirit is running you! That is awesome indeed. That is what the practice is for, what some have already attained. I imagine Eckhart Tolle. He is a person guided by his spirit. His message becomes more and more clear everyday.
Tags: Eckhart Tolle, Ego
