This blog is for documenting the awakening of my soul. I have been slowly moving towards the breakdown of my ego since reading “A New Earth”. I have found the perfect Life Coach and she is helping me through this difficult shift. Yesterday, during our session I felt filled with grief and pain. I am fighting terribly to stay in my previous life. My ego is not going down without a fight and the inner turmoil is causing me great suffering. This morning I meditated with the intention of discovering my call. As usual, minutes into the mediation my body began to sway, left then right, pulling right. I focus my intention on the call. The swaying stops and I try to “see”. The left side remains dark, while the right is brighter. I focused my intention on opening the left side also. I see a picture from my vision board of a girl meditating. This is me. The thought comes “I mediate to connect to the spiritual”. This is good, the thought repeats. I feel a movement in my body again. This time it is forward and back, but the pull is backwards. What can this mean? I remember Margie saying that the call is like a pull, so I give in to it. It is uncomfortable, I am sitting, so how far can I be pulled before I fall backwards. Eventually it stops. I settle in and my body begins the left to right motion again. I hear a sound upstairs and I open my eyes, begin to move about my day. I stay present in the shower, dressing, I want to log this for Margie to see. Maybe I can log this for the world to see….ahh here I am.
Tags: awakening, meditation, spirituality
